Lost

I got lost in ‘we
I let my guard down
For the first, I chose to be selfless
Since we met I became me again
The shread of being the strong black woman stopped
I learned to share my problems
That was good and bad
The bad part is that I let you influence me
You were the one that now could determine my happiness
I let you take control of me
The good thing is that I knew sharing your problems is half solved
Now you just made a whole you turn on me
You left me hanging there
Wondering about
You are heartless
But why do I still love you
I wanna hate you
Actually, I hate you and love you
Pathetic loser I am
But what can I do
I can’t change my feelings
My very sound mind knows you are not human
And my heart says you are the best
Am torn between my mind and heart