Lately

Lately I have been dancing with the devil
Yet no one noticed it
Maybe I know how to cover it well
Better yet I am my own devil.

Maybe I am just into my feelings
Maybe it’s my illusion
Maybe I am just letting my feelings all over
Regardless I cried for help

Maybe I  was hoping for too much
I wanted to believe that  I had my person
Maybe I wanted to be loved like I love
Yet again proven wrong

So here I am today
A whole changed human
You all claim how cruel and inhumane I have become
But you were nowhere when I needed you

Pain changed me
The loneliness I endured took away my happiness
The darkness that I faced created a new side of me
Numbness is now my favourite feeling.